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Name: Ariel
Birthday: 9/13/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: friends, music, driving around, having fun, laughing, smiling, meeting new people, being loud, target, naperville, my future.
Expertise: royally fucking things up.
Occupation: Ice-cream scooper.
Industry: Time-Out.
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AIM:  ariel1390
Yahoo:  air_ee_ell
Member Since:
6/23/2006
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| It's been awhile since I've updated. I've been all sorts of busy with making extra money for college and packing and getting everything gathered for moving. I leave for school on Wednesday and I don't think I can be anymore excited. My nineteenth is next Sunday too. My last year for being a teenager. That is slightly depressing. I told you that you've become so bitter, it's almost cute, it's almost sweet.   
Maybe if I had held on tight to the balloon string instead of letting it go in the air, I wouldn’t be here right now. But here I am, biting my bottom lip, exhaling smoke, staring at the sky, and looking for you. You told them that I hung the moon. It was a lonely sliver hanging from the sky. I said I put it there for you. I didn't think that it would make you cry.  "While you were sleeping I figured out everything. I was constructed for you, and you were molded for me. Now I feel your name, coursing through my veins. You shine so bright it's insane, you put the sun to shame." I want to say no, but all I say is yes. I want to move on, and not to second guess. I want to let go, but he just gets the best of me.   
Screams are finding their way out of your car. We're screaming. We're screaming "I LOVE YOU," over and over. I hope people hear us. Maybe, someone will tell everyone back home, maybe we don't care. What's too painful to remember, we simply choose to forget. So it's the laughter, we'll remember, whenever we remember the way we were. 
The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected.  I love Spongebob. | | |
| Yesterday two of my friends and my boyfriend left for college. Thursday my other two friends leave. Then I am all by myself until September 9th. I'm going to be so damn bored. Blahhhh. Sold my soul for rock and roll, but nothing ever goes my way. 
Well, I couldn't stand to be in that place, I was just about to leave when I saw your face. You were laughing at me with your beautiful mouth. You said, "You're looking miserable, do you wanna get out?" It's funny how the world changes sometimes. How the streets you've walked your entire life suddenly seem darker, colder. How the silence isn't so quiet anymore. How eyes you've barely noticed, now look at nothing but you. How the walk home every night is no longer a routine, but a victory. And then you being to wonder, maybe it's not the world that changed.. Maybe it's just you. And then suddenly, you begin to wonder all over again. Somebody should have told you it never comes easy. Somebody should have told you that there's no guarantees and that you lose it all when you stop dreaming. There's no way to know if you run away.. they tell you who you should be while ignoring your dreams. There's no looking back.   
  
The way your words keep me in line I know what I'm here for. Waking up to the grin of your eyes, it's something I'll get used to. And sometimes I'm bold and brash. And sometimes I'm prone to crash. And sometimes I say too much. And sometimes it's not enough. But I'll never hold you back from something you want so bad. Just tell me so I'm not sad. Was it something I said? I'll always pretend for me to be somebody, anyone but me. Hold me up to break me down. Just pick me up to push me down. Take these wings off my shoulders I'm ready to fly. Push me off or push me over, it's too hard to decide tonight. My word is breaking down tonight, my arms are breaking off tonight. So keep your balance and keep your eyes closed so tight tonight. 
They say the wind is everyone that you've ever loved grazing their lips upon your cheek. 
Paramore concert October 10th at the House of Blues in Chicago. :] | | |
| Sorry it's been such a long time since I've made an update. I've been pretty busy going to concerts and doing stuff with college. I went to Warped Tour and saw Saosin, Forever the Sickest Kids, I Set My Friends On Fire, UnderOath, A Skylit Drive, 3oh!3, athe Devil Wears Prada, and Scary Kids Scaring Kids. I also went to Lollapalooza and saw Kings of Leon. Then I had orientation for college. I've been all stressed out about paying for school, but my parents aren't worried. 28 more days until I leave for college! Hoping for a moment that I turn around and you'll be coming after me. Cause all that I can say is that it's obvious, it's obvious you're all I see.   
Now our brains are too big for our heads. They're expanding. You can order your life through meticulous planning, but it's a crapshoot when things unexpectedly start to move faster. And you try to avert a disaster. But you can't always get what you're after. I know you know this. Sometimes the world stops meeting you and sometimes your life starts deceiving you. When you see that no one is around, then there's a new direction that we have found. I feel everything you feel. It's real, all those things you feel. 
So I'll mess with your head and take my time back, to whom it may concern, it lacks, the fire that he had and I realize I can't do this. The sunset at the end of the road and I felt his face stare through the window and I'm thinking you should know I can't do this on my own. Why do we trust one another so little? I know there must be a reason, but still I sometimes think it's horrible that you find you can never really confide in people, even in those who are nearest to you.   
We've seen the sunrise with new eyes we've seen the damage of gossip and true lies. We've seen the sun go down. Had passionate makeouts and passionate freakouts, we built this world of our own. Sleeping in the arms of love, is she hope or is she lost? Could she be just anyone? Could you be just anyone? Lights turned low, my fingers in your hair. Your ice cold hands, you take me there. 
She wears the peace sign so much she forgot what it means. Under and over t-shirts that she could’ve made herself. 
I'll be all alone after this week. | | |
| I've been having headaches and have been tired a lot lately. I think it's because I sleep too much. My crazy mother suggested being pregnant, but there's no way. I normally get about eleven hours of sleep a day and I don't do anything. But when I work and do something I feel fine. From now on, I'm going to get about nine hours of sleep and start running again and taking the dog for walks. You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me. You know I'm gonna find the time to catch you and, and make you stay. 
So let me ask you, I just have to know that you're not mine. Do you feel free and when you need it, do you still feel scared inside? 'Cause I am on the line and don't know what to do. And if I was running, you'd be the one who I would be running to. And if I was crying, you would be lying on the cloud that would pull me through. And if I was scared, than I would be glad to tell you and walk away. That I am not lying, I am just trying to find my way into you. I was trying to take a step forward but I took two steps backward, instead why don't you take one step sideways? Then we can stop doing this silly little dance.   
  
If the world could remain within a frame, like a painting on a wall, I think we would see the beauty. We would stand staring in awe at our still lives posed like a bowl of oranges. If we could sit together a moment and talk forever just to pass the time, I would smile as the shivers and chills run down my spine. With your eyes are locked on mine. Oh, we will fill the metro skies with country air, and when you close your tired eyes; I'll meet you there. 'Cause all that we need is the courage to breathe, to write a page full of words, I wear my heart on my sleeve, a moment to sleep in the safety of our dreams. Now I'm okay. 
These rules are made to break and these walls are built to fall. These rules are made to break us all. 
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Warped Tour is Saturday, yay! | | |
| Warped tour is in twelve days! I can't wait. It's going to be tons of fun. I lost my housing assignment for college. Whoooops. I know what hall and stuff I'm in but I don't know any of the dates and I don't know what I need. Poop. I have cramps. I'm here for you to use, broken and bruised. Do you understand? It's only you, Beautiful, or I don't want anyone.   
Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me. - Scrubs These are the moments in your life that make you, that set the course of who you're gunna be. Sometimes they are little, subtle moments. Sometimes they're not. I'll show you what I mean. 
I don't care who you've been sleeping with these days. You're outta my hair, its growing just above my smiling face that I wear every night I drink myself to sleep, not thinking about you, not thinking about anything at all. All day long I can hear people talking aloud but when you hold me near you drown out the crowd. Old Mr. Webster could never define what's been said between your heart and mine.   
Believe in whatever. Just say you love me and keep me sane. Say what you like, just don’t say you don’t like me. Play by the rules and keep me warm. I just want you. No strings attached. I'm hardly capable of half the damage that I would like to do. I could swear that I don't care, but you know I'm too full of shit to think this through. 
It’s you plus me divided by inadequacy times my denial minus three words we threw around and around.  I want a chocolate and marshmallow milkshake. | | |
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